Transcript of October 15, 2005's channeling at the Prima Kings Hotel, Jerusalem
Channeled from the Guides of Gregory Goltsov

This is a transcript of the entire evening.  Some additions have been made in brackets especially for you, the reader, and names have been omitted for privacy issues.  Enjoy the journey of reading!  If you set aside the time to truly read the material, rather than simply skimming over it, you will receive a powerful jolt of the intensity that occured, and it will be as if you were there.  Enjoy!


Greg:
  So welcome.  Let’s take a moment to settle in.  First let’s do a couple of logistics.  We are in all likelihood going to be doing some amazing things this evening, and I want this to be a very safe space, comfortable space for everyone involved.

We are trying to create something very special this evening, so the more all of us are together in it, the more powerful it will be.  I want this space we’re creating this evening for the next hour and a half or so, to be a safe space and a comfortable space for whatever happens.  That means, whatever anybody says is treated with respect, no matter what it is or what it sounds like.  That means when you leave here after this evening, I want you all to feel free to talk about whatever you want to talk about what happened, but if you’re talking about something anybody said, other than me, don’t mention their name and treat it with respect.  It matters.  Even if they’re nowhere near you, that people open up to a big group makes a big difference.

The air-conditioner in here has two settings, it’s on or it’s off.  So as we get cooler and warmer in here, maybe I can appoint someone in this area to flip the switch as we desire and as people have varying comfort levels, make yourselves known somehow and we’ll figure it out.

That’s about it.  Did I miss anything?  We’ll be taking questions at some point, whenever it works.

So.  Some of you know me, some of you don’t.  I’ll give a quick introduction for those who don’t.  I entered energy healing school about 6 years ago, the Barbara Brennan School of Healing, and while there I discovered I have this ability for channeling.  It kind of came through while I was doing healings, and as time went I realized that the ability grew to a point where it can be done much more easily and frequently, and not only in the context of giving someone a healing.

From my perspective channeling means connecting to something higher than here, than the body, than the person here that goes through all the stuff and often kicks up a fair amount of negativity and doesn’t know what to do in this world.  It is going up to a higher place and connecting with it and seeing what it has to bring down.  Often there is a fair amount of wisdom.  On a more specific level, from my perspective, I can directly connect with spirit guides, my own and other people’s.  We all have spirit-guides who are with us in this life, whether we are aware of them or not. They often help us out.

So what we’ll be doing this evening is, they have some things to say about the topic of “Confronting Fear,” we’ll take questions, and see where the evening goes.  Does anyone have any questions before we start?

Audience Participant:  I just want to clarify something.  The ad had said that the lecture was going to be about “Why Are We Here”?

Greg:  Correct.  Yes.  There were two ads, one is “Confronting Fear” and one is about “Why Are We Here?”  We will be addressing them both.  And they intermingle, they intertwine with each other.  And often confronting our fears brings us to why we’re here and what we want to do with ourselves.

Audience Participant:  You mentioned spirit guides, could what you explain you mean by that, that the spirit guides are going to be the ones talking, because I don’t really know what that means.

Greg:  Absolutely.  We’re not here – and I’ll say this from my perspective, I’ve heard and read a hundred different definitions, so this is from my perspective and my experience, someone else’s may be different.  We’re not here alone.  At all.  We are going through whatever it is that our lifetime brings with us and we’re not alone.  We have guides with us in our lives, even if we’re not consciously aware of them, they’ve helped us before this life, they will help us after, in our journeys.  Often they introduce some synchronicity into our lives, where we find this need to be doing something and oh – we bump into someone and oh – we want to cross just the right ad or just the right thing happens at just the right time.  Maybe it’s a coincidence, maybe there’s some divine intervention.  From my perspective there are a lot of beings that are with us that aren’t physical, that most people can’t see, that are with us helping.

I know how it sounds to people who aren’t in this mindset.  I was the biggest skeptic in the world myself until it actually started happening to me.  So think of it as you will.

 
Audience Participant:  How was it that you discovered that it was channeling and not just something else?

Greg:  Good question.  For several years I very much doubted what I was doing and completely doubted that anything was happening and completely thought that it was in my mind and my imagination and I’m just going crazy.  Which, think again as you will.  [Laughter]

In the context of healing school, the way they teach us, is we do our thing and they confirm or not if what we’re doing is accurate by their perception.  And the teachers’ perception is rather extraordinary.  So if I am getting something on a person I’ve never seen or worked with before, and I am saying, well, something happened when you were four, with so-and-so.  Or, there’s a lot of fear going on with such-and-such emotion.  Or, you need a man, I don’t know why.

I am giving actual examples that happened, and I told people and they’ve said, “That’s exactly right, this is what’s been going on in my life.”  So after doing it again and again for many years, I’ve come to become confident in what is going on, especially when I talk about things that I have no idea or no way of knowing, I’ve begun to really be aware that it’s something other than me doing the talking.

 
Audience Participant:  Is this something that’s constantly developing for you, is it constantly developing more and more?

Greg:  Continually.  And still.  Yes.

 
Audience Participant:  I’m just wondering, what is the connection between poetry and performance art, and what it could mean to the spirit.

Greg:  Between poetry and performance art?  I’m not sure I understand.

Audience Participant:  When you speak about channeling, I guess everybody who paints does that kind of higher channeling, how do you form something out of nothing?  When you refer to the word “channeling,” do you use sentence structure which is poetic?  In other words, as the poet performing it, rather than what’s giving it?

Greg:  So the question is, do I find a connection between poetry and art and channeling.

Audience Participant:  Right.

Greg:  Not being an artist, I don’t know that I can comment on that.  From my perspective when I channel, I get words and concepts and thoughts, which I speak.  That’s how I experience it.

 
Audience Participant:  You mentioned spiritual guides were helping us.  Are there guides who are not helping us?

Greg:  There are a lot of beings out there, many of them have good intentions, some of them don’t.  I don’t call them guides, because that’s not what they are.  But, yes, there are beings floating around who don’t always have the best of intentions.  I used to work with people with mental illness and often they would hear voices – which I think actually come from somewhere, their doctors think otherwise – who tell them to do things to people which aren’t very pleasant, and they’re just having some fun.

 
Audience Participant:  What’s the way to confront these?

Greg:  The way to confront these.  That’s a good question.  That jumps straight into our topic, “Confronting Fear.”  How do you confront fear and absolute terror – that’s how they experience it anyway.  How do we all experience the fears in our lives, the voices in our heads, that tell us to do all sorts of things which we may not want to do, or which we may want to do but be afraid of doing?

Why don’t we do a quick little thing here, why don’t we close our eyes, think about why you came here, let’s focus and settle in.  Why are we here?  What do you want to confront?  What meaning do you want to find?  Why are we here?  Why are we here?  And what do you want to do with what you have?

You’ve been given skills and gifts and talents, you’ve been born with them, you know you have them.  Why are you here?  And what is going to stop you?  Are you going to let something stop you?  What hits you when you try to feel all of who you are?  And everything that you want to be?  What fear hits you?  Why did you come?  What meaning are you looking for?

So visualize it, see it in your head: why did you come here, what’s hitting you?  What divine message are you looking for?

So whenever you’re ready you can open your eyes.  No hurry, whenever you’re ready.

So you raised your hand, you asked a question, why are you here?

Audience Participant:  I need some additional perspective, I need some additional answers that come not from logical reasons, but to be able to get connected to loving yourself.

Greg:  What connection are you looking for?

Audience Participant: A spiritual connection.

Greg:  What are you looking for?  What do you want to add to your life, or change?

Audience Participant:  To be able to do things without fear of financial implications.

Greg:  So um, we’ll be getting to that in a minute.  They’re saying we jumped ahead of ourselves a little bit, so let’s jump back and let us introduce them and transition into them from me.

They refer to themselves as “we,” they are plural.  Sometimes they refer to me as Greg, when speaking, which is interesting.

You need to forgive me for a moment.  While I do this daily in my private practice, I’ve never done it for a large group before, so bear with me for just a moment.

I can’t believe I’m about to do this.

Believe me, I’m very aware how un-mainstream this is and I try very hard to be as down-to-earth as possible, and there comes a point where I just got to jump out of that, so here comes.  So they’re saying:

Guides:  We want to thank and honor every single person who has come here.  Every single person in this room deserves to be honored with large, large amounts.  It is not everyone who will come to an evening lecture and look into their lives and see how they can make it better.  If everyone on this planet did this, this planet would be a very, very, very different place.

So first and foremost, before we get into any details, before we start addressing individual issues and discussions, before we do any of that, we want to honor the grandness of who each and every one of you are.  We do not say this lightly.  This is not a simple mere cordial greeting.

Every single one of you deserves to be honored and respected for having the courage to answer an ad in the newspaper, or a flyer, or an internet posting of all things, and come to improve your life.  Not everyone would even imagine, or consider to go to something like this, never mind actually going ahead and doing it, actually transporting themselves to the place where it is happening and actually paying money for it to happen.  [Sitting down and taking the time to read something like this may be easier than transporting yourself to a hotel and paying for entrance, but you are nevertheless sitting down to read this, and this is a significant task.]

This is very important.  And this is something we want each of you to feel in yourselves.  We want you to feel how powerful it is that you have taken a step, and many of you have taken and are taking many steps, but – we want to honor this step, that you come, that you answer a calling of someone who is speaking, who doesn’t always even believe what he is doing.

That you answer a call to come and improve your own lives and the lives of others by telling your loved ones about it, and the way, hopefully, many of you will pass on what you hear this evening to others.  The way some of you may hear it again and again, as many times as you wish, through the audio-recording.  This is not small stuff.

If every single person on this planet would take ten minutes a day, never mind an hour and a half or more, to actually look at their lives and see how they can improve it, how they can improve their lives, this world – we tell you right here and now – this world would be extraordinarily different, and the six o’clock news and the hourly news would be filled with completely different things. If each person on this planet would take but ten minutes a day and look inward, and look at where their lives are going, at what they’re doing with their lives, and why, and what needs to stay the same and what needs to change – if every person on this planet did this, this world would be exultingly different.

And so we say with honor, we say powerfully, honor yourselves and what you are doing.  And each and every one of you is a beginning.  Because, as you may have noticed, this world is changing.  This world is greatly, greatly changing.  World cataclysms are happening.  Nations that have never spoken or rarely spoken to each other, certainly not through official channels, are doing so.  And again, and again and again.  This world is changing.  In many ways that are tangible and visible, in many ways that are, for now, not seen by most.

Have no doubt that you all are living through a period of time in the history of this planet that is undergoing great change of consciousness, and you all are a part of that.  And this is why we say it is so powerful that each one of you take the time to come here and take the time to look inward, to actually make a difference in your own lives and in the lives of others.  Because when you do these things, when you, when each individual in this room [and on this web site], when you do these things, you become a beacon to others.  Whether they see you or not, whether they consciously feel it or not.  When you do that, when you start living that kind of life, you affect those around you.  Verbally and otherwise.  And you all know it too.

When was the last time you saw someone on the street?  You didn’t say anything to each other, you just saw him or her.  And there was something about him or her, that you just liked and you wanted to take in.  When you start living your lives from a place that is more centered as well as introspective, as well as taking a little bit of time daily to look at your lives, you will greatly affect your own life and those around you. Greatly, greatly.  We cannot say this enough.  We cannot say this enough.

Greg asked you this earlier, what is your greatest fear?  What is your fear?  And why are you here?  Someone asked about poetry earlier.  What is your fear and why are you here?  And inevitably, and this has been spoken and written about over and over again throughout the ages: your greatest fears will lead you to your greatest life’s purposes, to the greatest meaning in your life.  The greatest things you’ve ever imagined in your lives will come about when you look at your greatest fears and you start addressing them.

The first step in addressing them, write this down if you wish, this as going to be a step-by-step program, you have come for this and this is what you’re going to get.  Your first step in addressing fear, or rather your first step in confronting fear, is addressing your fear.  Nothing more, that’s it, step one.  Acknowledge its existence and look at it.  That, all by itself, strikes fear in many people.  So do this in any way that is comfortable for you, do this in a way that works for you.  But if you’ve come here to confront your fear, to find meaning, this is the step, this is the first step.

Number one, address your fear.  See it.

Give it a moment to let that sink in.  This isn’t a classroom academic lecture.  We are giving you these steps not only through the words but through the feelings, through the emotions. Let this energy, let this vibe, let this feeling penetrate who you are.  Feel this.  Don’t just hear the words.  Feel this.  Feel it.

See your fear in your mind.  Feel what it would be like – you don’t have to do it right now – just feel what it would be like if you were to, at some point, when it’s comfortable, address it.  Let that sink in.  Does that feel comfortable?  Does that not feel comfortable?  What is that like for you?  Now we are addressing “addressing fear.”  Just explore it, what is this like for you?  What does it feel like?  Is it heavy?  Is it light?  Is it sad?  Fearful?  Conscious?  Joyful?  Just explore, that’s it.  No judgment, no intention, or rather, the only intention is to explore.  No evaluation, just explore.

That’s it, a lot of you are doing it, that’s exactly it.  Without judgment, just look and see.  Without any idea where it’s going to go or what’s going to happen.  And your greatest example is standing in front of you, of doing something and having no idea of where it is going to go or what’s going to happen, because your voice in this, Greg, has no idea what we have in store.  And he walked into this having no idea.  And that was him confronting his own fear.  And that is how he is able to send out that energy, that feeling, to all of you, because it is very rare that a teacher can teach a path that he or she has not walked on.

Step two.  If you’re ready.

Step two.  First address it, step two:  explore it.  That means deeper than addressing.  What is it, why is it here?  Feel it.  What is it like?  What is going on?  What is associated with it?  Sadness?  Fear?  Pain?  Anger?  Memories?  Vulnerability?  Hatred?  What is associated with that?  Explore it, and now go deep.  Feel it.  What is this like?  What happened to you that this fear came about?  At what point in your life this fear come about in your thought process?  When did it happen?

Step three:  Go deeper still.  That’s the step, go deeper.  You found what’s going on.  Now feel it, confront it, be there.  Heal it.  Feel it, confront it, be there.  Heal it.  That’s a, b, c, and d for this step.

Feel it, confront it, be there.  Heal it.  Feel it.  As in, fully embody it.  Is it fear, sadness, terror?  Let yourself feel it.  Go back to where it happened.  Let it happen.  Go forth with it.  And then keep going, move through, heal it.  What does that mean?  That’s different for everybody.  That’s different for everybody.  It might mean specifically confronting it, it might mean doing it.  It might mean finding an advisor, a healer, a therapist, a specialist, a something to do it.  It might mean finding a partner inclined to be there with you.  It might mean anything at all.  Go there, deep, see what’s going on.

That’s it, we’re done, that’s the steps.  If you can do those things at the deepest core fiber of your being, deep, not just oh, I can write this down on a sheet of paper, but deep!  Feel it, go back, explore where you came from, where this comes from, why did this happen, when did this happen, how and why do I feel the need to hold on to this in my life?  What is so important about this, that this is staying in my life?  Or the opposite, what is so horrible about doing the fear, about confronting the fear, that you would rather live with it?  How long will you live with it until you decide it’s time?

At what point does the pain of living with the fear outweigh not acting upon it?  At what point is there more pain living with it and not doing anything about it than there is addressing the difficulty that it takes to go and do something about it?  Now this we guarantee you, we guarantee, this is a promise from the heavens.  And those of you who are skeptical consider it a promise from Greg. [laughter]

Greg:  [Laughing] I hope that carries weight with you all.

Guides:  This is a promise to you.  And those of you who don’t wish to hear a promise from the heavens or from Greg, consider it a promise from the depths of your own soul.  For you are a product of divine creation, and along with that comes a promise.  And this is the promise to you, divine beings of God, this is the promise to you that comes by your birthright.  You can do anything you’ve ever wanted to do.  You can do anything you’ve ever wanted to do.  You have been created with all the tools that you need to be able to do this.  We guarantee this.  You already have everything that is necessary.  You already have everything you need.  Either within you, or resources around you, or more likely a large combination of both.

And this is part of the path which is the point at which most people struggle upon.  Using the resources.  Because most people think, “God, God!  If I can do this, okay, let’s do it, fine!  Where’s my money, where’s the end of my pain, where’s the end of all this stuff that’s going on all around me?  Have you looked at the world yet?  God?  What’s going on?!”

This is where people often get stuck.  Now we tell you this.  That it is possible does not mean a simple thought in your head can make it happen, although that’s a start.  But if you wanted an easy time floating around in the heavens, letting anything at all happen at a whim, you wouldn’t have come here.  You wouldn’t have.  You came here because you wanted to learn how to manifest what you want in your lives, given this atmosphere, given an environment where it takes a great deal of thought to manifest something.  Where it often, and usually takes a great deal of working together with others.  And to really make something happen, work together deeply with others.  To get to know people on a deeper level.

And that is where Life and Meaning comes in.  The meaning of life, life and meaning.  Why are you here?  Why are you here, when you confront you fear, you are here.  Greg was mistaken when he said he does not speak poetry, because often it is.  Why are you here?  When you confront your fear, do you think that your fear is there accidentally?  Do you think it is happenstance?  Do you think it is a mere coincidence, do you think you are a person put together of various qualities, oh I’ll give this one some of this, some of this, some of this, and some of that, and it’s just there for no reason whatsoever?  It is there to guide you.  To lead you.  It is there to be a lifelong tool.  A lifelong tool.  It is not a detriment, it is a tool.  How you use it changes everything.  But it is there to be a lifelong tool to guide you to your deepest longings, to your deepest desires.  And, and, and to your greatest gifts.  Your deepest fears will lead you to your greatest gifts.  You are all looking at someone who is very afraid to be seen.

Greg:  Part of working with guides – and some people are sometimes surprised at this – that we sometimes argue and disagree.  And so sometimes it happens.  People often think, you’ve got a direct line, what is there to disagree with?  But it happens and this is my humanness coming out, because they want to say some things about me and ah, ok, well, I just needed to hesitate a bit but here it goes.  I’ve learned over the years to trust just about anything they say, no matter how crazy it sounds.  So…

Guides:  You are looking at one right now whose greatest fear is –

Greg:  I keep thinking, you want to say this?  You want to – Ok, here it comes.

Guides:  – whose greatest fear is being seen.  Whose greatest fear is shame.  Whose worst nightmare is being somewhere where everyone is going to point and laugh.  As in fact people have done, or had done in a rather tumultuous childhood.

Greg:  I can’t believe I’m saying this. Ok, back to the guides.

Guides:  Have no doubt, have no doubt, that through years of hard work and directly addressing a lot of things that are going on as well as other things which we will not speak out of respect, but that’s enough to suffice the point.

You are looking at one who at one time was afraid to so much as raise a hand in a group or in a schoolroom, is now standing in front of a crowd, most of whom he does not know, speaking words when he doesn’t know the next sentence that is to come.

And this is how he is able to teach to you, because he has walked this path.  Now we tell you this.  We are giving this example not for nothing, but because we know.  We know.

We know what it is like for you, even if the person next to you doesn’t know, even if your closest loved ones don’t know, we know and we gave this example of Greg as an example of someone else who goes through deeply dark times, and knowing that every single one of you and virtually every person on this planet, has awful fears, has times when they go to bed at night and don’t know what’s going on, why they’re here, why things are happening to them, or to the people around them.  Why they’re here on Earth, what they’re doing, what their purpose is, why their fears are enveloping them so much that they don’t even know who they are anymore.  We know when you cry out to the heavens when you are alone, we know your darkest fears, and we tell you this.  We are here to help you.  Know that you are not alone, ever.

Just as Greg has his own personal team that’s with him right now, guiding him in what needs to be said, every single one of you, in this room and on this planet has a personal team that is there to work with you, to help you, to be there with you.  You can call upon them at any time, whether or not you have these abilities to hear, we have the ability to hear.  And whatever you speak, we hear, and whatever Higher Power you may believe in, also hears.  If you ask, it has been said, you shall receive.

We urge you to know that you are not alone, and in your darkest moments, ask for help.  And ask for what you need in that moment.  If you want your pain to go away, if you want your fear to ease, if you want to feel like you’re enveloped in a great big ball of love, of kindness, of peace, of safety, of comfort, say the word, ask for it and see it happening.  And see what happens.

We will give you a moment to take this all in, and we will take individual questions.

Greg:  Speaking of synchronicity, those who may not have noticed, at the very moment they said, “We will now take a moment,” the audio tape stopped and we had a break to turn to the other side.  Interesting things happen.

[After a short break]

Greg:  Questions?

Audience Participant:  You repeated yourself several times, do the guides feel they need to repeat themselves as if we’re not taking it in or understanding it the first time?

Guides:  We very often repeat ourselves, very often, when speaking with Greg and with others.  We repeat ourselves with words as well as with circumstances, as well as with thoughts that we may send into your head.  We repeat ourselves with intention, not because we think you are foolish or unable to understand.  We repeat ourselves for two main reasons.  One is to emphasize the importance of certain things.  Because, when saying a lot, it is often for certain things to get lost in the shuffle.  And so if it is important, we will say it again.

The other reason is, we know, as we have just said, we know, we understand what it’s like to be here.  We understand that it’s difficult, we understand you go through many things.  And so when we speak to you, and have no doubt that we speak to you, we repeat ourselves.  Now with most of you who can’t clearly hear our words, we repeat ourselves with circumstances, with thoughts that may find their way into your head, something you should do, or want, or go, or someone you should call, or whatever goes on.  Because it often takes a repetition of many similar circumstances in order to be able to get the point, in order to be able to get it.

Why do you think, and this is even a phrase, a cliche, why does this always happen to me?  Why do the same things keep happening over and over again?  And from our perspective we would say, “why do you keep inviting the same circumstances into your life?”

The reason the same circumstances keep coming into your life is because they have something to teach you.  When they no longer have something to teach you, they’ll no longer be there.  Or, they may be there but you won’t notice them as much.  They won’t bother you, or they’ll simply become a part of the background.

 
Audience Participant:  This talk, this gathering is happening inside a synagogue, inside a hotel in Jerusalem. In Jewish tradition we have a concept of one God and also a concept of angels.  So I would like to ask about the relationship of guides and God.  And what is the wisdom of addressing ourselves to one God, or is it wisdom to do so?

Guides:  It is no accident that you are here in this room, in divine space.  Greg did not know it, until this very moment that this is a synagogue within the hotel.  From his perspective it was simply a room that felt right.  From our perspective there are a great many ways that we can help and guide people to do their work.  And that is – we are going on a slight tangent from your question but we will get to it.  There are a great many ways that we guide people to do their work.

If we always told people or gave people all the information all the time, it would be incredibly overwhelming.  And that is why most of you don’t hear us because it would be incredibly overwhelming.  We guide you in all sorts of ways, through feelings, if something just feels right. And then, you’ve all had this circumstance, you don’t know why, it’s something you need to do or somewhere you need to go or someone you need to see, lo and behold, it was exactly what you needed in your lifetime.  This is no accident.  You were drawn to it with a reason.  And this is one of the many ways you are spoken to from a higher realm.

The relationship between God and spirit guides.  From a higher perspective we are all one.  Every single one of us, every single one of you, there is no difference.  When one person feels pain, all of humanity feels pain.  When one person gives or receives a healing, all humanity gives or receives a healing.  There is no difference.

Zooming in to a perspective more within your realm of perception, where you do see yourselves as separate, even as some of you are aware that you all are truly connected.  There are many forms of incarnated beings.  And there are many, for lack of a better term, “career-paths” that incarnated beings may take.  One of those paths is to become a spirit-guide, where we help those who are on Earth.

Our relationship to God, we are divine beings. You are divine beings. We are all, every single one of us, and every single one of you, creations of God.  We are all given and we choose, our path and our tasks in life.  Just as you have the free choice and power and free will to do virtually anything you want with your life at all, given doing the things required to make it happen.  It works in a similar way in the spirit world.  For those of us here with you have chosen to become spirit guides to help you.  We are incarnated beings.  We have individuality.  At the same time, we are part of the whole, just like you.  We are your guides because we may have a bit more experience in certain experiences.


Audience Participant:  I’m a bit confused with the difference between fear on the one side and the who I am and why I am here.  Because you can’t really know who I am and why am I here without having fear.  Do you understand the question?

Greg:  You want to have who you are without the fear?

Audience Participant: No, no.  Who I am and why I am here is a different, as I see it, a different question in life as opposed to fear.  It’s two different issues.

Greg:  Who you are is completely separate from fear.

Audience Participant: Yeah, that question of who I am and why I am here as opposed to fear.

Guides:  We tell you this.  And it is no accident that two different sets of advertisements have gone out.  The first one about life and meaning and the second about fear.  Though they seem to you and to others as completely separate entities, and they may seem to be, we will tell you this.  The more you delve into your fear, the more you delve into your fear, the deeper the depths of yourself you will be able to access.  And the deeper you can go into yourself, the more you can feel your meaning, your purpose, the why are you here.

Even things, simple fears, you’re walking down the street, a car honks and you jump, simple fears: “I don’t have enough money to pay the bills this month.”  Simple fears, “Should I get on a bus today?”

These are real things that are happening, and real reasons to be afraid, and we have not come here to tell you to ignore your fear.  Your fear is a tool.  Your fear is a tool.  It is a divine gift to help you, lead you, and guide you in this life.  Though it may seem completely different, you watch the news, “Do I get on a bus today?”  That’s a legitimate fear.  However, where does it come from?  Where does the fear come from, where does the terror come from?  What are you afraid of?

Now the question isn’t, “Should I or shouldn’t I get on a bus?”  That’s a rightful and thoughtful decision to make.  The question is, why does it bring about that reaction?  Where did it come from?  And when you go into it, even though it seems, even if it seems like it doesn’t make any sense – why shouldn’t you be afraid of being blown to bits? – no one is saying this is not legitimate.  We’re saying, go deeper, go deeper, go deeper.  Where did the terror come from?  And can you live your life, even with all these things going on, without feeling the fear?  Making the right decisions, but without the fear.

We tell you this – and spoken from the voice of someone who has walked into the middle of a pegua, a bombing, ten minutes after it happened, and gave tremendous amounts of healing – we tell you this.  It is possible to make decisions for your life that are right and correct, while at the same time feeling centered, calm, with an awareness of your own depths.  We tell you it is possible to walk through anything without fear.

If you have it – or rather when it comes because you will all have it if you are human – listen to it.  Find out where it comes from.  And use it as a tool, if you wish.  The connection is there, even if it is difficult for some of you to see.

Does that answer your question or do you have a follow-up?

Audience Participant:  I suppose on the basis of what you just said, that they’re connected and just by confronting and dealing with the fear, that the who I am and why I am here is addressed. 

Guides:  We ask you, do you want to speak your fear right now, do you wish to share?

Audience Participant:  When I try to think about my fear I actually can’t find it.  That’s what troubles me.  The only thing I could think of is financial, paying the bills every month.  On the concept of who I am and why I am here I’ve thought a lot about.  But on the concept of fear, I actually couldn’t, I mean, day-to-day fears, yes, but not, you know....

Guides:  Day-to-day fears.  Financial abundance.  And there we will tell you, if you are okay with us addressing you deeply in this public forum.

Audience Participant:  All right.

Guides:  Abundance, financial abundance, is there enough?  Is there enough for me?  Will I be able to survive in this world?  Why can’t I have enough to have everything I want?  When will all of this finally settle itself?  When will I have a job that can pay what I want so I can have what I want?  Are these things that you think about from time to time?

Audience Participant:  Not really.  Hmm – ‘cause I have the job that has the potential.  I suppose, I mean, getting really personal here, I suppose even though I feel comfortable in there, it’s just the expenses are always higher than the income, fighting to keep the expenses down.  And that’s, I suppose, a fear of not being brought up in a rich family and just to – that’s the fear really, financially.

Guides:  Having enough.  And this, we will tell you, and we will tell you it is no accident that you are speaking.  Having enough is probably just about the greatest fear of all humanity.  Do we have enough money?

In many parts of the world, especially right now, do we have enough food?  Do we have enough shelter for the amount of people who need it?  Do we have enough land?  How many wars on this planet have been fought over land?  How many?  How many?

How much is this feeling of “not enough” pervasive?  And now we will zoom out to a greater picture.  How many of you, when you walk by a beggar on the street – and there are more than enough in Jerusalem, and this is a holy city, this is a holy city, and it is no accident that there are beggars on the streets in this holy city.

What do they bring up in all of you?  What do you feel when you walk by?  It is no accident that they are there.  Not enough.  How many of you think, and how many of the world think before they give to a beggar, or a charity, “But wait a minute, will I have enough?  How will I pay my own bills?  How will I do my own thing?  Will I have enough?”

That is the separation that we addressed earlier.  Understand that on a larger scale we are all one and there is no difference.  And when you see someone without enough, that person represents a part of us, that doesn’t have enough.

And so, how do we give to ourselves?  How do we give to ourselves?  By embodying a feeling of giving.  How do we address not having enough?  By embodying, by living the concept, the feeling, the emotion, the vibe, of abundance.

By walking around knowing that you have enough.  And that doesn’t necessarily mean walking into a fancy store and making foolish decisions with your abundance.  That is what we addressed earlier – can you live your life and make intelligent decisions, but without the fear?

And so this is how the fear guides us.  We have just made a jump.  Are you with us?  This is how the fear guides us.  When we no longer need the fear to be there, then it will no longer be there.  When we no longer need the fear to be there, and we will make intelligent choices with our lives without the need for the fear to be there, even if the fear is not there, the fear will no longer have a need to be there.

And so, jumping back a notch now, when we embody the feeling of abundance, we are feeding ourselves deeply, in a deep, deep way, we are feeding ourselves, not to mention others.

And this is what we spoke about when we first began this evening.  When you do something you’re not only helping yourself – although you are, greatly – you’re helping everyone around you.  And so, if you feel as if you don’t have enough, or rather the way to feel that you do have enough, feel that enough-ness.  And so when you walk by the beggar on the street, do you have enough?  Do you have enough?  You don’t have to give away your life-savings, but you have enough?

Audience Participant:  I’m sorry Greg, but I must speak out against whatever your guides seem to think about Elie Wiesel’s Beggar in Jerusalem.  There are many beggars in Jerusalem.  However, it is known by those of us who have lived here for many, many years that a woman called Miriam Mendilow, of blessed memory, took every beggar but one off the streets.

She started something called Yad Lakashish, which still exists on the Street of the Prophets, and there is never a need for a beggar in Jerusalem, never, because they have free meals on wheels, because they have workshops, because they get money, and there is no need.  And there was one woman at that time, who told Miriam, “I refuse to get off the streets and come to you, because I’m giving people the opportunity to give tsedakah [charity], and orthodox people have to have an opportunity to give tsedakah.”

Not mentioning the fact that there are plenty of ways to organized charities which give meals and which give homes and which take care of children, to give tsedakah.  And she’s still on the street.

Now the ones that have come up are still open, at Yad Lakashish.  So if everybody here wants to feel guilty about not giving ten shekels [about $2.25] to every beggar they see, please know that most of them are fakes.  Please know that one of them has a home in the Old City, in the Jewish Quarter, a lovely apartment, and she lives there.  Please know that there is one who looks like he has a bleeding leg, it’s a fake.  He takes it off and he walks home.  Please, I really respect you for what you’re trying to do, I give lots of money to hospitals and to children’s homes, but be careful of the beggars.  They’re not here for the reasons you think they are.

Amen.  [laughing]  That’s my sermon this week.

Guides:  Thank you.  We first want to honor your courage for speaking out.  We know it is not easy to do that and we honor it.  We will tell you this.  Though you are correct in virtually all of what you’ve said.  You are, that is not the question.  The question is not, are they legitimate.  The question is not, will your money help them.  The question is not, should you give ten shekels to all of them.  The question is not any of those.  And those people who started all of those things are honorable people who started with excellent intentions, who started programs that work well.  But we tell you this:  the question is not – the question that we are addressing is not that.

The question is: how do you choose to live your life?  What do you want to bring into your life?  How do you want to feel about your life, yourself, and your city?  The question is not, is it legitimate.  And this is where many of you are confused, including your friend Greg who is speaking, who often has the exact same thoughts, who does not in fact, give to every beggar in the street, but to some.  But it is a continual question in himself.  And we ask that it be a continual question in yourselves.  The question is not, are they legitimate.  The question is, someone is asking you for help.  Will you refuse him or her?  Even if they are scamming you. 

And yes, there is a woman who has been a beggar for years with a beautiful apartment in the Old City who tells tour groups every day, that her apartment has just burnt down.  And she’s been doing this for years.  The question is not, is it legitimate.

The question is, a human being is reaching to your for help.  What do you think showing them kindness and half a shekel [about $0.11], will do?

We ask you simply to ponder this question.  You have come here to address confronting your own fear, to address life and meaning.  What do you think giving to someone, who you know or you think may be a scam-artist, will do?  What if you carry beauty, grace, kindness, and generosity within you to every single person that you meet?

What if everyone did do this?  If you don’t want to give money, do you want to give anything?  Do you want to stop and smile and say “hi” even as you know the person may be a scam-artist, do you want to be kind to this person?  Show them consideration, show them that someone wants to stop and talk to them and acknowledge their humanity.  What will this do to your life?  What will it do to their lives?  This is the question.


Audience Participant:  I have since the age of twelve suffered from sleep paralysis.  It’s pretty scary.  I hear voices, and I just stop breathing.  So I’m afraid of dying, and literally I’m afraid to go to sleep, because I stop breathing, and it’s a very heavy, heavy, heavy feeling in my chest.  I just want to know what it is, and what they want from me.  Because I think that it is entities, they’re around me, and it’s just gotten worse and worse and worse.  And it’s supposed to get better and better and better actually, after you’ve reached 30, you don’t get it as badly, it goes away.  But it just keeps getting worse and worse.   So that’s why I’m here.  What is it?  What do they want?

Another audience participant:  I had it when I was 17.  It’s frightening.

Greg:  Can we turn on the air-conditioning?

Guides:  Talk about synchronicity.  Feeling the heat, feeling the heat and turning on the air conditioning.  Your difficulty, as virtually all difficulties, are about your needs, as you are aware in the question that you asked.  You came into this life, as did everyone, with certain goals that you wanted to achieve in this life.  One of the tools that you gave yourself – you gave it to yourself on a higher level.  And so that is the way to think of it, you gave it to yourself.  It is a tool.  What is it here to tell you?  You’ve gotten it, but move past the fear of it and move into, “This is a tool and it’s telling me something.  What is it telling me, about me, about my life?”  In the context of this forum – it is something very deep for you, and in the context of this forum we will tell you.

You are beautiful beyond belief.  You are beautiful beyond imagine.  The greatest purpose that it is teaching you through everything that you need to go through to work with it, deal with it, is to be able to hold yourself with grace and with the beauty that you embody while working through it.  Just as virtually everyone here on Earth is given difficulties to work through in their lives, this is one of your major difficulties.  Address it as you can.  While you are, hold yourself with beauty, with grace, and do –

Participant:  But I’m dying, I can’t breathe, I can’t hold myself, I need to know what do they want from me, that it’s at the point where I cannot breathe.  I go to doctors, they tell me there’s nothing wrong with me.  Tests, everything, CAT Scans, everything, nothing wrong with me.  I cannot breathe.

I can’t hold myself.  I’m just thinking, that’s it, my life is finished.  It’s pretty scary.  It’s been happening since I was twelve.  I don’t really know what to do.  I’d like to understand it better.  I know that it’s something that – they’re trying definitely to tell me something – because the audio hallucination that is speaking in a weird language and I cannot understand it, and that’s, at the moment when I just stop breathing and it’s – I don’t understand what they mean by “holding myself.”  Like literally, hold myself?  I can’t move.

Guides:  That is part of what we mean.  Not in the middle of it, but during other times, yes.  Give yourself – this is very important for you, we will first address a more emotional side and then get into a tangible side.  For you it is very, very important to address your emotional side.  Give yourself the kindness, the generosity, and the beauty that you give to others.  Dedicate time daily to doing this and you will go far in working with what’s going on with you.

In terms of specifically what you should do we tell you this.  Since you were twelve you haven’t died during this.  You’re not going to for some time.  You have a long beautiful life ahead of you.

And we do tell you this: you do go and you have gone to doctors to address this.  If they haven’t given you what you’re looking for, start looking at other methods, other alternatives, other practitioners.  Start screaming out, ask everyone you know, at every forum you know, is there someone who has worked with this, is there anybody who has healed this, is there somebody who can help me to heal this?  And while you’re doing it, give yourself the kindness, generosity and love that you’re giving to others.


Audience Participant:  I have a general question in response to something that was mentioned.  The general question was, to go back to the scenario with the beggars, what do we do when we are in a situation where you offer assistance to these beggars and they don’t want it?  They’re there because they want help but they refuse the actual true assistance that is given?

Guides:  We ask you back this question.  And we ask it with respect.  With the utmost of respect.  Who are you, that you know what they need?

Audience Participant:  I think that I ask them what their needs are.

Guides:  That is one way to ask them what their needs are.  But to address a deeper belief of yours, of a question you didn’t ask, if it’s ok.  Is it ok to address something more personal with you?

Audience Participant:  Ok.

Guides:  Generous as you are, giving as you are, and you do this in other aspects of your life, you don’t always know what the best path is for someone else.  Even if something seems very clear and obvious to you, even if it would be obvious to virtually anyone, you don’t know what somebody else’s greater needs are.  You simply don’t know.  If you are generous enough to offer assistance –

Audience Participant:  That’s exactly why I’m asking the question.  If I’m taking the time to ask them, to find out what their needs are, they describe their needs, and due to my skills I offer assistance and that’s refused.  And where do you go from there?  I don’t like rejecting them, so what’s the next step?

Guides:  You have now said two things in addressing someone else which more deeply address you.  The first is, skilled as you are, knowledgeable as they are, intelligent as you are, you don’t know the best needs for someone.  Even if all of your training has told you, such and such will make something better, how do you know that’s in that person’s best interest?  How do you know what their path is?  How do you know what they need to experience?

If it is frustrating for you, that they do not take your help, what is really frustrating you?  Why do you need them to take your help?  What is going on?  What is going on that you need them to need or accept your help?  That is a deep –

Audience Participant:  It’s not just my help.  But if they’re there as a symbol of requiring help, what do we need to do within ourselves or as a people that – I don’t know how to make a question for it.  Want a practical example?

Guides:  Absolutely.

Another Audience Participant:  They’re telling you what they think.  When they’re saying what they don’t want, they’re telling you what they think.

Audience Participant:  The example is of someone who, when I spent some time speaking to him, he was complaining about an alcoholic father-in-law who was making all sorts of these demands and abusive and all these other things, and asked what could be done to help.  So the information is given as to what could be done to help, he says no, I don’t want that.

Guides:  Your task is not to solve their life.  Your task is not to take over their life.  Your task is not to be the queen or guide of somebody else.  Your task is to be who you are as much as you can be.  Offer what you can if you wish, and, and – and this is the part that you are not fully getting – and while you are doing all these things, fully respect and listen to the person you are speaking with.  Fully and completely respect them.  So if there’s a person telling you about problems, and you know how to solve them, and that person refuses your help, respect what they say.

When you hear them, then they feel heard.  How many of you have had the experience of speaking, and feeling like no one’s even listening to you, and why bother speaking?  And then what does it feel like when somebody hears you and understands you?  Whether or not they understand you, where you’re coming from or why you’re doing what you’re doing, they hear you, they’re with you.  The question is not that you must solve every problem of everyone you encounter.

The task that you may embark upon, is fully witnessing somebody else, for all of who they are.  And if that means being with them in whatever place they may be living in, be with them in that.

Audience Participant:  You say that they’re there because they need assistance, which isn’t necessarily hard.

Guides:  They need a lot of things.  They do want help.  Do they want help from you in the way that you are giving it, in the manner in which you’re giving it?  This is not to disvalue you, but not everyone wants what everyone else has to give all the time, not matter how good the intentions are.

Their higher task is not for themselves to be needy, but to show others how to more deeply feel themselves.  And for you, to more deeply feel yourself, to give yourself to yourself without judgment.  Without rejection.  Without being afraid that something you do will reject somebody else and without being afraid that someone else will reject you or has rejected you.  Your greater needs are to see and respect everyone you’ve ever seen.  Everyone you see, whether it’s the bank clerk who may be frustrating you, whether it’s the person on the street who just bumped into you.

Do what you need to get your needs met, but respect them.  When you do this, you respect yourself.  When you give to the beggar, you’re giving to yourself.  And when you are generous, even to someone who is annoying you, you are generous even to yourself, even when you can’t stand yourself.

Taking over another person’s life – some people sometimes call this “being mothering” – other people can call it, “over-mothering.”  Taking over someone’s life is rarely, if ever, the best way to help somebody.  And if you are in doubt, dear one, dear one, we know this comes from a place of deep longing to help.  We know.  We know.  So dear one, offer what you have to give.  And go from there.  And address it, which was, going way back to the beginning of this evening, the first step of confronting fear, address it.  In this case not the fear, but the way in which to help.  See what is there, feel what is said, just be there without judgment or expectation.  Just be there and see what comes.

Let go of the expectation and the need for an outcome to come out in a certain way.  And this, for you, we know is a great task for now and we say this with respect.  Address this, and you will go far.  And other things in your life will start to fall into place also.

Audience Participant:  How is giving phone numbers controlling?  They don’t have to use them, but they’ve asked where they can get help, so if I give phone numbers of where to get help, how would that be controlling?

Guides:  We understand how much you want to help, and understand that we answer from this perspective.  If you offer phone numbers and they wish to receive them, that is their right.  If you offer phone numbers and they do not wish to receive them, even if having asked for them, that is their right.  They are allowed to say anything they want.  And even if it doesn’t make sense to you, and even if for you it is a sudden realization that they don’t truly want help to change their situation, that is not the question.  Be with them who they are.  Offering a phone number isn’t controlling.  Being upset or frustrated if they refuse it, begins to move in that direction. 

 
Audience Participant:  I feel like I am, or can be lots of things, like professionally, and I’m trying to make an integration of all those things.  I don’t feel like I know which direction to go.  And I want to do God’s will, God’s intention for my life, and I want to figure out which direction my life is supposed to go in, and I don’t know where to go.

Guides:  You can be anything.  You can be anything you want.

Greg:  They’re saying, “Greg give the example.”  This is the example my healer gave me.  He said, you’re hosting a party, and you’re asking God to help with that party.  God is your caterer.  How does God know how to cater your party, unless you know what you want?  When you ask for certain things, or want to create certain things in your life and move toward them, if you don’t know, you get exactly that, that you don’t know.

When you take the time to make a decision, and that doesn’t mean it has to be one thing, but if it’s a large set of things, and not a lot of focus, and what you’re looking for is focus on one or a few things, then focus on one or a few things.  They’re saying,

Guides:  And that, especially, is very important for you.  You have many great talents, and that is the downfall of many great talented people – there’s so much to do.  What to do with one’s time?  Pick, decide.  Understand that you can do no wrong.  It’s not about right or wrong.  It’s not about which decision is right or wrong.  It’s not about picking the right thing.  There isn’t even such a thing as a right thing.  Because no one is in charge of your life more than you are.  No one is in charge of your life more than you are.

Understand that.  While it is blessed and honorable to ask for God’s intention, to ask for goodness to happen, if you want God to cater your party, tell God what you want.  And then – we’re on the second step first.  First, tell God to cater your party.  And then, let go and give it up to God or spirit, and from there be open to what happens.  But first, what do you want?

Focus, focus, that is your greatest task.  It is a difficult task and it is a difficulty for you.  Focus, focus.  It doesn’t matter as much on what as it is to simply do it.  And as you begin, you will start to get a feeling of which things you want to focus on.

 

[There were more questions and answers, but due to technical difficulties, some of the questions and answers were not decipherable on tape. But, interestingly enough, this seems an excellent place to leave off.]




     
       
 

     
           
       
         
         
 
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